My Cup Runneth Over

Jairo and I have been going to Village Church for about a year and a half now, and we really like it. Its fairly small, but we've met so many amazing, Godly people and have become quite good friends with several couples in our young marrieds group. Pastor Lee is an incredible preacher and I feel like I learn something new everyweek and both Jairo and I feel so cared for there.

I've been a christian since I was 5 years old, and except for the occassional "flat on my face" moments with God, I'm not extremely emotional when it comes to my Spiritual life. Thats not to say that I don't totally delight myself in the Lord, because I most certainly do. I've found that Peace and Joy that God promises me and I strive to be totally satisfied in Him. I just mean that, for the most part, I'm not real emotional with the ins and outs of my daily walk with Him. That is until lately.

Every sunday for the past 3 months, I've found myself bawling my eyes out during the service. I'm not hearing any specific message from God, just an overwhelming feeling of Him. Joy, Thankfulness, Praise, Humility, uncondition Love and Forgiveness. All of these feelings just well up inside and overflow into tears. Sometimes its during worship when one might expect to be moved by the Spirit, but sometimes its in the middle of the offering or even the benediction! I can't figure it out. Its pretty obvious that the Spirit is moving in me, and I love that God is totally softening my heart to Him, but I'm not sure what I'm supposed to be doing with this new found sensitivity. Easter Sunday we had 6 baptisms, I cried (really cried) through all of them. I don't know how to really explain it, except to say that I feel like this is truely a gift. That God is giving me this heightened sense of awareness of His presence, and I'm not really sure how to handle it or what to do with it, if in fact I'm supposed to do anything at all except just praise Him for making Himself so obviously known. My entire life I've been asking God to make Himself known to me in a powerful way. Now that He has, in the most unexpected way, what is my responsibility to Him?

Top 10 List

I think everyone should have a top 10 list of things they want to do before they die. Goals are good for us and keep us motivated. How boring would life be if there was nothing to look forward to? I'm not really sure what prompted me to write out a list, but the other day I was thinking about my friend, Amanda, from the great white north. I remember that Amanda had a list that she kept by her bed, but her list didn't stop at just 10, she had about 25 things listed. I recall one of those things being, "have dinner with Andy Griffith"! So funny!

So here they are in no particular order:

1. Write a book (children or adult, fiction or non, I don't care)
2. Compete in a triathalon (preferably an ironman)
3. Have babies
4. Live in the mountains (preferably Colorado)
5. Learn conversational Spanish (I can get around okay but forget about having a conversation with my mother in-law)
6. Spend at least 2 months in Europe (backpacking or hotels, depends on how old I am)
7. Star or least have a significant role in a professional play (Do I hear broadway calling?)
8. Finally accomplish the guitar (my attempts, as of late, are left wanting)
9. Travel cross country in an R.V. for an entire summer (does that make me a hick?)
10.Learn to sail
*11. Go out and actually use the skills I learned at Medeba (okay, maybe not telemarking, but everything else)
*12. Learn to use a potters wheel

Spring

Sunshine! Glorious Sunshine! Finally, after months of clouds and grey, the sun is out! Its amazing to me how much the weather can affect my mood. The first few weeks of winter are full of anticipation of Christmas and sledding and snow, but after awhile it kind of wears thin. By March, I've so had it with 25 degree weather that I can be found wearing shorts and tee shirts with flip flops when I'm at home. But I can feel that adventurous spirit deep within begin to stir and plans of summer excursions begin to brew. I can't wait! I love Sun!