My Cup Runneth Over

Jairo and I have been going to Village Church for about a year and a half now, and we really like it. Its fairly small, but we've met so many amazing, Godly people and have become quite good friends with several couples in our young marrieds group. Pastor Lee is an incredible preacher and I feel like I learn something new everyweek and both Jairo and I feel so cared for there.

I've been a christian since I was 5 years old, and except for the occassional "flat on my face" moments with God, I'm not extremely emotional when it comes to my Spiritual life. Thats not to say that I don't totally delight myself in the Lord, because I most certainly do. I've found that Peace and Joy that God promises me and I strive to be totally satisfied in Him. I just mean that, for the most part, I'm not real emotional with the ins and outs of my daily walk with Him. That is until lately.

Every sunday for the past 3 months, I've found myself bawling my eyes out during the service. I'm not hearing any specific message from God, just an overwhelming feeling of Him. Joy, Thankfulness, Praise, Humility, uncondition Love and Forgiveness. All of these feelings just well up inside and overflow into tears. Sometimes its during worship when one might expect to be moved by the Spirit, but sometimes its in the middle of the offering or even the benediction! I can't figure it out. Its pretty obvious that the Spirit is moving in me, and I love that God is totally softening my heart to Him, but I'm not sure what I'm supposed to be doing with this new found sensitivity. Easter Sunday we had 6 baptisms, I cried (really cried) through all of them. I don't know how to really explain it, except to say that I feel like this is truely a gift. That God is giving me this heightened sense of awareness of His presence, and I'm not really sure how to handle it or what to do with it, if in fact I'm supposed to do anything at all except just praise Him for making Himself so obviously known. My entire life I've been asking God to make Himself known to me in a powerful way. Now that He has, in the most unexpected way, what is my responsibility to Him?